Resolution……

Happy soon to be New Year 2019!!!!!

I’ve seen email after email after email, today talk about making New Year’s Resolutions, what they should be, how they should be, buy this or that, to help you make it to your goal.

NOW!!!! DON’T get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with that, we all have to earn income…..it just made me realize that I am following WAY too many blogs out there & still too dang poor to take advantage of any of their help…..which sucks.

But, it also got me to thinking (very scary at times….and gives me a headache at times too…..like now…..or I’ve eaten too many candy rocks & my body is letting me know……either way……) it got me to thinking about my resolutions or lack there of.

I haven’t bothered to “celebrate” New Years in a good number of years, I use to stay up & watch Dick Clark & the American Bandstand bring in the New Year (that should date me quite a bit LOL), back then it was fun…I was fun. But I’ve been sad & miserable for so long……that’s all that I know. For years, I avoided the New Year celebration, I didn’t want to kiss the one I was with/near, because I wasn’t in love with him…I didn’t want to bring in the New Year pretending…..yet again.

My Resolutions started as a kid, to do more, to have more fun then switched to get a 2nd job or get a college degree, then to do more for my kids, to lose weight, to find a way to be happy in this marriage, to do all that I could to be a better wife so he wouldn’t stray, to make things work. Reaching for the impossible seemed to be my yearly, daily, monthly theme. I have succeeded at losing weight…..nearly 50 pounds….but still got more to go. (Slowly losing it, just not in the area’s I would like it to be). It’s been up & down over the last few years on doing more outside the home with the kids.

I’d have better luck at becoming an astronaut then I had at keeping him from straying, so I gave up trying. I doubt that I will stay up to bring in the new year, because I still have no desire to kiss a man that killed our marriage, destroyed our vows, broke my heart into a million pieces & changed who I truly was at my core, BUT!!

I do plan on making a resolution or 3 (or a zillion)……My top one is to be true to myself. I’ve never really ever focused on myself, in my life…..but I’ve always done things that I loved/enjoyed & shared it in some ways with others. Currently I am sharing my office chair with our 13-14 year old cat & my 1/4 of the seat is starting to kill my butt. But I miss me…..stubborn, caring, (protective) temper, attitude (stubborn one), some say I’m a bitch, some say I’m brash, but in a caring one. I don’t sugar coat things, I’m blunt, but not hurtful. I don’t let many into my inner circle, but if you make it in there…..I’ll always have your back.

I still want to lose weight…..soooooooooo tired of being fat. It’s hard on the joints and organs & losing weight isn’t any easier on the joints at first (just ask my knees & elbows) LOL I still need to finish my 2 year degree that I started 24-25 yrs ago LOL

I don’t know if my husband & I will ever fall in love again or stay together after the kids move out….I know a LOT of things have to change…a lot within me & a lot in his actions & behavior. I still get the feeling some times that he’s back to hiding things, I chalk it up to it being me. But I won’t ignore my gut. It hasn’t let me down, even though I’ve let it down.

But the other thing (there are several others) I want to focus on, is our business……I have already earned a commission check this month, I’ll get a bigger one next month. I want it to keep growing.

But I realized something recently…….I am NOT a salesman, I don’t have the magic words to flick the switch in people to make them instantly dive in. But I recently talked to a disabled vet, that had such a passion for what he’d like to do, but also struggles financially & emotionally. And then I talked to a young mom who has a very physically demanding job, has to work out in all kinds of weather & has 3 babies that are a year apart & wants to stay home with them. They both have a struggle & a need & as much as I would love to help them fulfill that need…….I can’t do it for them.

But I want to try & help them to fulfill it for themselves……..I want to do that for every one who would like to change their life.

I have a LOT in my own life that I need to work on, change, & improve….so I understand struggle. My new years resolution this year……….is to change MY life & help others change theirs. I’m starting in an area, that I know that I can change……finances. I know that for me, bringing in some extra money that will get some excess bills paid off, that will help get supplies we need here at the farm, that will help get me some new tires for my truck & some hay stored for my animals. AND I might even be able to take a vacation with my family……or at the very least, I can send my kids on a vacation.

Either way…….2019 my life is changing………for the better.

But in the mean time, my butt is hurting sitting on this tiny 1/4 section (maybe 2 inches) of my chair & as a result……my back really hurts. So, I’m going to say tootles for now.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING

I wanted to send off a post before the big day, because I may not have time or may have lost my sanity before the day is even 1/2 over, so it’s best to write now. ;o)

I think it’s been or close to being 40 or 41 years go, my most favorite cousin in the whole world was killed in a motorcycle wreck on Thanksgiving. It was hard for me for a while to find joy in this day again. A few Thanksgiving’s we would go over to my Aunt’s squeeze into her tiny house with all of her kids & a few grandkids & enjoy a big feast…..I miss those times.

But I really miss celebrating Thanksgiving with my sister & brother in the same house….my mom & sister would overly stress over the lack of cooperation they felt they were getting from the rest of us, the lack of control they had over everything & situation. My dad & I are the more laid back out of the group & then there was my brother who just hung out in his room & waited to eat & then went into hiding when it was time to clean up…..which of course, was left to the women (namely my sister & myself).

Even though we didn’t get a long much even back then…I still miss being together. But since she had her first kid…..they refused to travel, while part of me understood it…..how can you create generational family memories, if your never with family to make them? Even when she lived near us, she’d rather invite strangers into her home, instead of come be with family & let cousin interact & get a chance to become friends.

then after my brother’s family split up that was pretty much the end of our family Thanksgiving get together’s… my family was left on their own to do their own thing……while it was nice at times not to have to stress over whether or not your cooking would produce good tasting food. I missed my childhood at the holidays.

But tomorrow, we will hopefully be celebrating our first Thanksgiving in our First home (bought earlier this year) with my parents, brother & his kids. I’m excited & nervous & worried.

My house isn’t spit-shined as much as I was hoping it’d be, I forgot to make cornbread for potential stuffing to dry out over night for tomorrow. Not in the mood to make pumpkin pie right now…..so that might be a breakfast task. Forgot to get bacon to have breakfast.

And of course……..we’re broke.

but it’s ok, whether we celebrate with a full house or with just us……I am thankful to have a brand new house, to be able to celebrate thanksgiving and to be in a much better place then I have been just last year.

I still have a long way to go……..but I’m getting there.

HAPPY THANKSGIVING  

I’m Back!!!!

I don’t know if anyone’s noticed that I’ve been kind of quiet. Well, there’s a couple reasons……the main one is we’ve been moving (technically for 3 months) to our first ever buying a home…home. And that has had its own adventures, which I’ll post about later. But the other reason, is because my family has lost my box from my office that had my passwords & other important stuff in it (including the keys to our 2 riding lawn mowers), so since I still can’t locate it & hubby found another (questionable) way to start one of them…..I figured, today was the day to give up on finding my box & just change the passwords & make some other changes & move on.

So…….that’s what I’ve done.

Which seems to be the path that I am on lately, but I don’t want to go off the trail I’m on right now & go off on some other tangent, so no more about changes until later on.

Right now…..I seem to be the only one capable of figuring out what to fix for dinner, so I’m going to come to an end on this post & go dig out some pans to make hamburgers & cut up the left over pork loin so my family won’t starve :o)

Plus, my left hand is starting to really hurt again (must still have some inflammation caused from drinking pop still in my system). So, its time to stop typing & switch to reading for a while, plus, go around & shut all of the windows, its getting cold in here from all the “fresh” windy air.

But…..I’ll be back. I have a bit to share & still have stuff to move from my other blog. :o)

Till we meet again. :o)

Welcome To My Wayward Healing Journey.

I have another blog site already, but it was intended to go in another direction then where its currently headed, so instead of taking that page away from its intended purpose, I decided to start a different site where I can focus on my journey of healing.

I’ve titled my blog “My Wayward Healing Journey”, because I haven’t gone in a straight line on this journey. I’ve been sidetracked, derailed & ignored my need to heal.

Not because I don’t want to heal, because Lord knows I do, but because I haven’t put myself first yet. So, until I do……..my life as a mom, a homeschooling teacher, homesteader & all my other hats, including that of a wife, take precedence over my pain & healing.

I don’t know if you’ll follow my journey or can relate or have the perfect life. What I do know is this…..We all have our own journey’s to take, we all have a path that we should have followed out of high school or in our 20’s or 30’s or we have path’s that have been forced upon us to take & we got shoved off into another direction that we didn’t plan, choose, want to be on by any stretch of the imagination.

But here we are.

Now what?

Well……for me, I have a couple path’s that I need to deal with & hope I can change the way my current path is on.

I’m going to bring post’s from my other blog to here, they’re about pain, fear, healing, mourning & probably some others.

I hope you will enjoy them (as much as one can when reading about marital issues & emotional pain) enough to subscribe so you can follow, so they’ll come to your inbox.

I am going to get started, but because of life’s demand’s (or in my case appt’s), I won’t get everything moved over today.

Welcome…………and thank you for being here.

 

Fall – Changes -Choices

I was going to write a totally different post than what I’m about to write. But current situations or events, has changed my thoughts.

How long does a person keep a poisonous or negative individual in their lives? Or how long should they? I’ve been asking this for years & still don’t an answer to it. I know it’s different for every situation, but I think it depends on the person.

But fast forward to today, my husband came home way early from a business trip because his foot was swollen even more & red. Turns out that his suspicion of breaking his foot (a week ago) was sort of right, turns out that he broke his pinky toe & dislocated the 4th toe. But because he ignored the issue (even after his leg swelled up), he’s got an infection & could potentially lose his foot. Seriously, how many issues does one person have to have before they become pro-active?

Then he got mad, before all of this because he was acting “off” & we kept asking if he was ok, all he said was that he wasn’t feeling good, we asked for more details, so we could figure out whether or not he needed to go to the ER. It’s always this way with him, he ignores health issues until it’s a “have to” to go to the ER or else. But it’s our fault. I wish I could add the shoulder shrugging emoji. He also couldn’t remember if he took his medication, just a few hours previous, doesn’t remember a few other thing’s. I don’t know honestly, if it’s his medication, his infection, or from his accident years ago or showing early signs of dementia. 😦

He refuses to change, doesn’t think he needs to. Never thinks he’s done anything wrong. Yet, even a complete idiot, could see that his actions were his choices, no one forced him to do the various things. But not him.

***Update: He had surgery on his foot where the blisters & broken toe is. His blisters burst the day before so it was less cleaning then before. But the Dr. said the area looked better than he was expecting. So, now it’s a wait & see situation. He’ll get the bandages changed sometime tomorrow & that might give us a clue. I’m worried about the infection in the bone. That could go farther up the foot & that will end bad, very very bad. He had a cousin that lost his foot, then lost his leg below his knee. It wasn’t a good ending. It’s not going to go well for him if that infection spreads. It won’t go well for us. Being an amputee, is a hard adjustment for many of us.

Fall has hit, yet here, it’s still running mid-80’s to mid-90’s, which is ok with me, my tomatoes haven’t produced “fruit” & the one that has, hasn’t ripened yet. I have to quit depending on getting help & just tell the rescue dog that she’s going to have to occupy herself so I can protect my experimental garden from the cold nights before they die. :o(

That doesn’t work well. The kid’s left her alone for a few minute’s to go feed the pig’s & she busted the window in my oldest son’s trailer trying to go after our oldest dog Tig. And just had to cut her paw/lower leg.

This is on top of our buck getting hurt by the cow. Grr Thing’s happens in 3’s. Goat injured, husband laid up, dog hurt (those last 2 are tied for 2nd).

The weathers changing, the seasons are changing, the days, month’s & soon to be a year will changing. It doesn’t seem people want to change.

I am so tired, I’ve been up since 4 am. But kid’s are making dinner & its almost done, so I gotta stay up a bit longer. While this has been a rough & trying week & my daughter shared something her dad said before he left for his trip & I’m prrrretty sure it’s about him talking about divorce, “this week will decide”. If it happens it happens, I have fought for 30 yrs & it didn’t during this time.

So, we’ll see. 🙂 But in the meantime … I’m getting my steps in (walking long distance from parking lot to hospital entrance, then long distance from the entrance to the elevator, then to the room. LOL I think I’m as worn out as the pickup is. LOL

It’s been a stressful chaotic week, but the weather’s been wonderful, which makes it a beautifully blessed day. I’m trying not to dwell on all the negative, which could easily be the focus. But seriously, why would you? You change change someone’s opinion or mind or feelings, I’m not a miracle worker (I live that to the big guy, God), so I just pray that God gives me the ability to pick the right medication to use that will help him. I am doing my best to not be selfish & to be there daily, twice a day or more to sit with hubby & bring a kid if they want.

I’m tired, physically, mentally & emotionally & the hospital furniture are totally uncomfortable. But I’m trying to be there.

But we’ll get through this, some if not all of this. But we’ll be ok.

Prayers are on the wind for everyone effected by the hurricane from Florida to North Carolina & above .

Thank you for being here & reading.

*****update: Hubby got released today. He’s not out of the woods yet, but at least he’s home. So, we can get back to somewhat of a normal routine again. I can focus more on my buck, getting him back on his feet. Hopefully. Of course, it’s can you do this or that or one of the kid’s, while we’re trying to do other thing’s or rest from doing what ever. Speaking of which, I need to go check on the irrigation water & this has taken me a week to get done.

Thank you again for following me & reading my ramblings. I keep trying to be more consistent, but something always comes up & I just run out of time.

Prayers are on the wind for all, Good blessings, Happiness for all.

Thank you

Summer is close to ending … Venting

Hi, How are you doing? Thank you for being here. I have been so busy trying to get a garden in, rescuing 2 abandon dogs, pulling weeds, irrigating, etc. But I thought I’d drop in & see how your summers been?

My daughter & I rescued 2 dogs last month, 1 is a little wired hair mixed small dog & the other is an approximately 3 yr old Rottie that was seriously malnourished & unfortunately has severe hip dysplasia. It took us a week to befriend the Rottie & 2 more weeks to get the little dog to come near us & a few day’s longer to let us touch & love on her.

They both love belly rubs, they are starving for attention. But the Rottie & 2 of our other dogs (we have 4 other dog’s, our other one doesn’t want anything to do with the new dog’s & our other one wants to like them, but the Rottie scares him.) are out for blood. If we can’t get them to bond enough that we can bring them into the house, I don’t know what we’re going to do. We had a home that wanted them both, but then backed out. That leaves us all, high & dry, we’ll figure out somehow.

Now, to vent.

Technically, this is a new day. I started this on Wednesday evening & now it’s Thursday. I got GREAT news this morning …. hubby applied for a credit card. Don’t know when or where he’s applied to, to be able to get it. But I can tell you, that despite him saying “it’s for work”. He’s dug us another financial hole to get out of. He doesn’t do well with credit cards or charge accounts & then he expects me to work miracles & save his butt.

This is on top of our fight yesterday … Another threat of divorce. I told him to do it, quit talking about it. So, what does he do … after he’s done having a tiff at me, he takes it in the house & goes venting to our kids. I say kid’s, because well … they are. But they are young adults (18-27) I don’t know which of the younger 3 were in the house when he went spewing, but I know that our 20 yr old heard it & decided to spew venom back at me (asking me what I’ve done all day, saying why bother working on the farm, that dad & I were getting divorced & we’re not staying here. so why bother … spewing the same hatred his dad spews).

It’s amazing to see (& here)how I do nothing, but I’m always doing something productive, despite being in pain from the S. I. Joint.

So, I am going to get on with getting my back worked on, so if I can be pain free, then I can get this place back up to par the way that I had it, then I can go find a job outside of the farm & bring in some money. Get my debt taken care of, get the pantry built back up, save some money, etc. I’ll never make enough money working for someone else to be able to afford a place of my own, so I’m going to also work on a home business. I can’t keep living like this. I am so run down, worn out, my kid’s have picked up his way of treating me, why stay?

But, as my dad always said “Don’t cut your nose off to spite your face.” So, unless I’m forced to move out (who knows what he’s going to do) I’ll stay here for a while & save some money, find a cheap house somewhere to fix up & buy. It’ll mean having to reduce the animal population (already have to do that, can’t afford to get fencing to be able to rotate livestock) so … less animal’s, less cost output, less bitching about costs, less food raised for ourselves. It’s a win win, right?

If I could reach just 1 person whose in a similar situation, I would tell them to not just leave, but to run as fast & as far as they can. Hopefully they don’t have kids, because it’s never easy on the kid to lose a parent.

But staying in misery, especially constant misery, is just not worth it.

Constantly being told you don’t do anything, even though you out work him physically all day, even now that you hurt. You are the one that takes care of the bills, groceries, kid’s, house, etc.

Trust me, it’s not worth it. It’ll be 30 yrs this November that we’ve been together, 27 yrs in Sept we’ve been married. I can count on one hand how many “fun times” we’ve had & still have fingers left over. I can tell you fun times my x husband & I’ve had in the year & half we were married & not have fingers left over. But for me now … I honestly don’t remember having any fun times, the best times I’ve had, were when my kids were born. But those times were always surrounded misery, especially when the 2 youngest were born. Well, when the 2 oldest were born there was a lot of anger, the worst of it I think. But it didn’t ease up until after the youngest was past toddler stage.

Anyway, enough of that drama. I need to go to town & fight with the Social Security office … fun fun. And then might have to help husband’s daughter & son in law move or babysit the rescue dog’s.

Either way … I am so glad you’re here. I appreciate your support. The next message will be about my garden experiment & how it’s turned out.

Until Next time … Bye :o)

June is just around the bend …

Hey y’all/yall. How’s is this finding y’all doing? Good, I hope.

Can you believe it, we’re just about to hit the 6th month. Well, if you’re in the states, then your about to start the 6th month. If you’re in another country, like the UK, then it’s already June. LOL

Yes, was a mix of a nightmare from hell to a great day, well, a rough day. LOL

Got into a huge fight with hubby, seems to be becoming the norm again & I’ve GOT TO stop reacting to him, I did ok in that area yesterday. But no where near as good as I need to be. But despite the mean & vindictive, hateful crap that spewed out of his mouth. I did a great job containing it, so I didn’t take it out on my kid’s (young adult’s) or on my livestock (we had to load some of the momma cow’s to take them to a different pasture for the summer & no one (goat’s included) wanted to do what they were suppose to.

I had one heifer, that might eventually calve, but she’s the Aunt to our calves, 4 of them are just over a month old, 1 is 6 month’s old. But she didn’t want to follow the other cow’s or the goat’s into the barn, so the younger calves were like no way. So, after several hours & a cut section of the fence for them to “sneak” in, we had to make 2 trip’s, but we got them baby’s reunited with their momma’s. (One momma jumped the fence in the other pasture to go check out the neighbor’s calves to find her’s.

She’s an Aberdeen Angus aka Mini Angus, can’t believe that brat cleared a 5 ft fence. But she was nice & followed my dad back through the gates to get back “home”. Technically, where she went was also her pasture. But they had since (unfortunately) sold it, since the last time they were over there. But she is not letting her baby out of her sight right now. It’s going to be very interesting to be able to separate those baby’s in the next few day’s, so they can get banded & the 2 that didn’t get tagged, will get their “jewelry”.

I have to sit down & get some finances figured out. Thing’s are tight & they seem to be starting to choke us and while I am FAR from excusing my husband’s (*&(*^*$ behavior, I know part of it’s due to the finances. Somehow I’m always to blame. I am part of a great Direct to Consumer company, that is just fantastic to be a part of, that takes away some of the stress of shopping off my shoulders. I can order so many different products through them that I’d normally get through the store (beef options, snacks, laundry, etc) that now, I don’t have to pick up & I can just focus on the veggies & other meat’s, so my grocery trips are faster. I wish I could get Walmart or Costco to send me a check LOL

I’d really like it if I could order grain for our livestock & have it shipped to my door. But … there’s still more ways to cut back on cost’s, selling off my pig’s would definitely free up some money, that alone could go towards feeding the cow’s, goat’s & the horse. So, I need to spend some time during the day somewhere, to sit down & literally go through every paper & see how I can come up with extra money (so to speak) to start getting bill’s paid down. My student loan doesn’t have very long before it’s paid off, but that’ll only free up $82. But if I can get our small farm loan paid off that’ll free up $126. That’s only a couple hundred, but still … it can give us a breath or 2.

I also, need to get back to the chiropractor, to hopefully, get my back/butt back in painfree order & then if I can get pain free again & figure out if it’ll stay “in” while I catch up on work around the farm, then I can go apply for a job outside the farm to bring in some income to get stuff paid off. Because if I can focus on getting finances dealt with (again), then hopefully in 2 yrs we’ll get most paid off & then I can start saving to go find a new place, for myself, to live. My husband kicked me out of his house yesterday. And even though I told me to kiss my backside, I’m done. No I’m beyond done. If I could give anyone any advice to someone who dating a narcissist …. RUN. Don’t walk away, but run away. They will not, do not & can not change. Same if your married to one. Mine actually fits into more then one category, but we’ll focus on the narcissist aspect. I have been through, dealt with, put up with his Bipolar, psychotic, narcissistic crap for 30 yrs. Trust me. They don’t change, unless they think that they can get you to stay & then it’s only think they’ve buffaloed you enough that you stay. Don’t fall for it.

Anyway, on a much better note, outside of the momma & calves getting some lush green grass , we recently got a brand new baby goat. She’s so adorable. She a milk chocolate brown-ish white Angora/Sannen/Alpine – Boer Cross. Her “dad” is the Boer. She’s got a wavy coat. That’s in addition to the other 4 baby’s we got a couple weeks ago. Later on, I will send you another newsletter out, less depressing. Because it’ll be all about the baby’s, or cow’s & flowers & such.

I’m actually so excited about these baby’s coming, even though it’s WAY more mouth’s we’ve got to feed, which is also an issue with hubby, but that means that when the baby’s get old enough, I can start milking momma’s to get milk for us & start making homemade ice cream & homemade butter. I’d like to make cheese, but don’t have time for that, but I might wait till I can get a milk cow before I try that. Not sure.

I’ve missed milking. I hated having to fight with the girl’s, as they were all first timer’s, but it is a peaceful time for me. Which, in my life, I need all of the peace I can get. LOL But I have 1 goat that I am milking now (because she only had 1 baby this year) & her bag will get severely lopsided otherwise. I don’t understand why goat kid’s don’t figure out, that when there’s only one of them, they aren’t restricted to one side of the milk supply, but … They do, they stick to one side, no matter what. But her “extra” milk, has actually been supplementing another goat’s triplet kid’s, specifically the youngest. Another goat, who is a terrible mom if she has more than 2 baby’s, had triplets this year & I REFUSED to let her ignore/abandon this one just because. So, we’ve been giving the smallest the milk from the other momma & surprisingly, the triplet momma has been letting her nurse also & the little one is getting bigger & might drink a half of the baby bottle. But here lately, it’s only been an ounce or 2 at most before she walks away. So, the barn cat gets the rest.

The triplet momma, Honeycomb, will retire from producing kid’s after these baby’s are weaned. It just seems to be taking a lot out of her & it’s not worth it. So, she’ll become strictly a weed eater until she passes.

Speaking of which, I need to go to the grocery store to get something for tonight’s dinner & then go milk AppleJack (the other momma) & then tomorrow start milking Nibblet (the newest momma) as she too only had 1 kidlet), unless I can see that her baby is working on both sides, then I’ll leave her alone for a while.

I have a “garden” of sorts update also. So, until next time ….

I’d like to Thank each & everyone for being here, reading, following/subscribing & hope you have a FANTASTIC day.

Bye.

Spring … Summer …. Late April …

Hey Everyone. How’s it going on this late April weekend?

Mine …. started off rough (hubby related issue’s), but …. then I got busy roto tilling part of my garden. And it felt SOOOOOOOOOO good to be out working the soil again. Don’t get me wrong, it was hard. I have half a thumb now, which handles the “gas/throttle” side of thing’s, I have nerve damage in my lower back, & an S. I. Joint issue.

But the weird, cool thing is … those pain issue’s didn’t bug me the way it normally does. I mean I was tilling (& cleaning) the garden for HOURS. I walked back to the house WITHOUT hurting. For me …. that’s short of a miracle, because I also have 1 knee that’s been very painful (thanks to the S.I Joint issue). But that didn’t even hurt.

But, I figured that I’d pay for it today, when I got up. Nope. My thumb was a little tender, but using that tiller has always hurt my thumb, even before my accident, so that’s not new. But my S. I. Joint didn’t hurt in the extreme, like it normally does. The other really cool thing is, I mowed our front yard (which is like an acre in size) & had to get down on the ground several time’s to “fix” the belt on the mower, always using my bad knee to get up. It wasn’t until the very last “fix” that I started to feel the old pain start creeping back, but it didn’t stick around, for which I am thankful for that.

Maybe I’m just so thrilled to be back to working outside that’s made the difference, I doubt it, but I can hope. Otherwise, my new supplement is making a difference, which is fantastic, but also … a little worrisome. The supplement is a blood pressure support + it helps your circulatory system too. THAT’S the worrisome part. Because I could be dealing with clogged artery issue’s, which could be why I have high blood pressure (outside of the stress hubby & finances causes). It’s nerve wracking, but the truth is …. who knows what could be causing it.

Anyway, the upside of this is ……… POTENTIALLY, I could be somewhat back to normal, which will be a God send. I have been in pain for far too long & recently went back to the chiropractor to get some relief like a time before last year. Nope. But … I have hope.

Are you a Spring, Summer, Fall or Winter person? I like all seasons … Not a fan of winter, because of the cold, crazy drivers.

I am just thrilled with being able to plant or transplant (even though, I’m having some struggles on that front) …

I think I’ll just end this on the positive note.

Thanks for being here. Have a happy Monday.

Close to the end …. of March

Happy Sunday to y’all. I hope this finds y’all doing great.

We’ve had a few day’s of Spring teasing us, which was so enjoyable, but now … we’re back to being cold once again. Nothing surprising, we can still get snow until the end of May.

I’m in the midst of making breakfast, or due to the time, lunch. LOL But I wanted to come & say Hi to y’all & see how your doing.

I don’t know why, but I was excited to talk to y’all & excited about the gardening plans I have. Which actually isn’t anything big, but I’m hoping to get some purple seed potatoes, some red one’s & some yellow one’s, like Yukon Gold. I already have some russets that I bought from the store that has sprouted. Those will be my “experiment” one’s, meaning in the various places I plan on planting, if they produce, they produce.

I have heard that Russets are GMO. Not sure if it’s true or why they’d mess with them, they’ve always been big spud producers & they generally store well, but … they are starchy. Not good if you have diet restrictions, that’s why I like/love the Purple potatoes, they’re not starchy, they are low on the glycemic index. I’m hoping to grow an abundance of food.

With my S.I. Joint issue, I don’t know how successful I’ll be …. but I’m going to give it my best shot. I’m excited. Maybe because it’s getting closer to me being able to go outside barefoot without catching a cold (in theory) or freezing. Even though the majority of my chores requires me to where shoes or boots.

I have 6 more Doelings (young female goat’s) to sell. I’ve got 8 momma’s getting closer to having more, have a buck to sell, possibly 1-2 bucks (male breeding goat’s) to buy. I am looking for taller bucks, for some reason my offspring is shrinking & the one before this one I currently have was tall, but he didn’t seem to pass on those strong tall gene’s.

I also have piglets to sell, but as much pork that we eat, I am wondering if we shouldn’t keep most of them for the freezer later? But honestly? I’d rather sell off most of them.

I’m almost done with laundry, finally got a kid to work on the dishes, actually I’m almost done with breakfast/lunch. Everyone else is sitting on their butt’s, not offering to help unless I nag. I’m tired of nagging. Hubby’s been asleep all day. He has been awake long enough to have a cigarette, go bought cookies to snack on with his pop & to go to the bathroom. So, been sleeping since about 8:30-9 am.

I’m sitting on my butt doing this, & watching a youtube premiere, in between cooking & laundry. I did get my nap in when I got up at 5:30, I slept until 7:30-8 .. sort of. I got woke up several time’s & our 2 pit bull’s wanted to snuggle, so that kept me stationary until 9.

Didn’t get squat done outside today, unless you call making a trip to town to take a kid to go get stuff, get some groceries & then come back. Went & checked out a nursery to see what their prices were on fruit tree’s …… HOLY TOLEDO!! They think their stuff is solid gold or something …. unreal. But what really blew my mind, was the price for a weeping cherry tree … beautiful saplings, had one as a kid at our new house. This place wanted $200 for a 5 foot (maybe) tree, I could see that if it was 10 foot or so.

So, tomorrow, I am going to have the kid’s help me cut some board’s to “fix” my chicken coop/goat pen in the barn, so we can get the piglet’s in there to root up the hay & muck that has grown inside, maybe i can get some good compost out of there. It also gives the piglets a drier & way less muddy, mucky mess to be in. Our weather through the winter & recently has just made it ridiculously soupy & it was a brand new spot. We must have more clay in our soil then I realized? I knew it was 3 ft down, but can’t tell it in the winter time.

Anyway, it’s taken me all day to get to this point & I’m sure it’s already long & boring to you (I truly hope not, but I always expect the worst), I’ve got my last load of clothes in the washer for the day, I technically have 1 last load to get washed, but I’m tired of doing laundry, have breakfast/lunch dishes to do & need to get off my backside to get a store bought pot pie put in so hubby can quit “whining” about what’s for dinner. It’s nearly 9 pm & after coming in from having a cancer stick, he decides he wants something to eat & making some kind of sandwich is beneath him.

Think I’m kidding ???? You should have seen his face when I mentioned having a sandwich of some sort. It was like he just got a whiff of skunk aroma. Oh well … whatcha going to do?

I’m still pumped. I wish I had tons of money, well, maybe a hundred bucks, so I could go get some more fruit tree’s & just go wild planting them. I need to get some veggie seeds too. But I want to go hog wild/crazy on getting fruit tree’s/bushes planted this year. I have a ton of other projects that NEED to get done & they will get done, at least some. Need WAAAAAYYY more money for most of those projects. But despite all the Debbie-downers in my home & the less then helpful crew that they are, I refuse to let them bust my balloon. I want a big lushes productive garden, I will probably complain about all the canning & processing that’ll be taking place & the lack of time that I have (especially if I get my S.I. Joint worked on enough to go find an outside job), but I will be forever grateful to be blessed with a great harvest.

So, much to do, so little time to do it in.

With that said … Thanks for being here, hope you made it this far. Good night or Good Monday morning. May you be blessed with abundance, in whatever area you need the blessings in.

Take care. Thank you again for being here. xxxoooo

Feeling Blessed

When I first started on the title, I was full of joy, of peace & of general happiness. Then I had a conversation with my husband, that turned into a argument. No surprise there, but as always I’m wondering why it is always me being blamed. {Insert Shoulder Shrugging Emoji} -(don’t have a way to actually do that).

But after doing a load of dishes, staring out the window, wondering if I should go get some diesel for the tractor & go cut our “leased out” pasture to 1, get rid of last year’s grass, basically giving the field a haircut, even though it’s windy & chilly out. 2. grab a bucket & go up on the hill & pick cockle burrs/sand burr’s for a bit or start on dinner (even though I need some dishes for that) or what? {Another insert shrugging emoji}

Because right now, I’m still fuming. But in reality, I need to ignore the temper tantrum & remember why I am feeling blessed.

And the reason is, I was able to sell the majority of my young goat herd yesterday. 9 boy’s. I sold 1 buckling a 2 weeks ago, I sold (officially) 2 Doelings & 1 buck (-unofficially) last week, will be delivering them hopefully this weekend. I have some more Doeling’s to sell, have to get some more picture’s of them, so I know who is who on my phone & that makes it easier to put on Craigslist. I have some piglets to sell too, but don’t think they’ll go to 4-H, but that’s ok.

The biggest reason I feel blessed, is because I have prayed (or talked to the sky or the floor or the wall) to get these baby’s sold, before I had to take them to the auction/sale yard, I don’t like ours, because the “helpers” are mean/rough/abusive & they do too many underhanded backdoor deals & I’ve gotten screwed over more often then not. Plus, the animal’s are exposed to who knows what kind of diseases through there (& yes, it’s there). But I have FINALLY finally emptied my holding pen & coop pen. It is 100% THANKS TO GOD!! I am eternally grateful. It provided us with some much needed money to be able to be able to buy some groceries for us & more hay for the livestock.

It lightens the amount of hooves on the small holding pen pasture, gets them out of my barn, it lightens the load on the amount of mouth’s that need to be fed. Course, before long here, we’re going to have baby’s that will overfill the load that I just opened up.

But I am hoping that I can get thing’s back together to where, the animal’s basically paid for their own feed or each other’s feed, that way there’s less coming from the home budget.

This is just 1 step at a time.

I have some idea’s to sort of expand, but don’t want to get crazy. For 1, we can’t afford to pay for much right now, 2 & actually the biggest reason, is physically. Having a pinched nerve caused from an S. I. Joint, makes walking or moving in general painful. Nothing compared to those with full body pain, like my husband, I’m sure. But pain is pain & when you get to the point of tears or wanting the painful part ripped off. I consider that some severe pain. But as hubby pointed out to me earlier, my pain in minuscule compared to his, not as important or as painful as what he deals with. Which is probably true, who knows, we’re 2 different people & have different level’s of pain tolerance.

I’m watching a homesteading video & it reminds me of how much more I need to get done & my kid’s aren’t too thrilled to be doing any work. So, I might just go get a tote that I can turn it into a worm compost thing. My mom gave me a worm thing that gets buried in the ground, I want to have one in the house. I don’t know. I like to experiment on some thing’s, but I don’t want to waste money & honestly, I’m not sure if starting a worm compost inside is a waste, they need to be somewhere in the winter time, so why not in the house, where they won’t freeze & I can produce good soil all year long (in theory), so I can grow worms indoors in the winter, which can help me grow other stuff & be ready for spring.

So, before I get another squirrel get me, I am going to go work on dinner, dishes & then head to the store to get a tote & get started on the worm thing, it can fit under a table we have in the dining room. I think I need to get a tote for other thing’s, I am getting really close to pitching a whole lot of stuff that I have collected over the years. It’s a toss up between pitching permanently & pitching it into a tote to keep it safe, but out of the way. I don’t know.

I do know that I am extremely blessed to have been able to sell off all of our buckling’s in one lump sum, I’m also very blessed to have all of you followers/subscribers here, reading, hopefully liking.

Thank you all for being here, for following & just for being awesome people.

Hope you have a great weekend.

Daylight Savings …. Spring

Hey All!!

How are y’all doing? Today, Daylight Savings time kicked in today. I thought I way over slept, but felt slightly more rested then normal, but I still didn’t want to get up.

For all of you that don’t have to deal with Daylight Savings, I am so jealous. I wish the powers that be, would shut that down. What’s the purpose of it, especially now day’s & especially considering not every state in the US does it (how unfair.) Ok, it’s not that detrimental or terrible, but it is miserable for some of us.

I’m a bit heartbroken that I didn’t get 1 suggestion on a good free website to try. Ok, well, not really heartbroken, but I am disappointed. So, with all the followers I have (& grateful for) .. it makes me realize that, my post’s are not being read or reaching the right people. But that’s ok, I knew it’d happen., like I told my son who started a youtube page for Minecraft & a couple other games he does on there too, do your best, keep trying to improve what you make & not give up. So, that’s what I’m doing.

I am going to try & continue to improve my blog, while I can continue to complain about my relationship with my spouse, it’s not improving & I have to focus on not falling back into the trap of reacting to his attacks, I’ll never heal or grow, so talking about it just keeps the misery alive & well & frankly I’m beyond tired of being on that hamster wheel, so why keep y’all on it?

So, I decided yesterday to start making changes to follow along with the changes (more or less) in the season too. So, I decided to put some greenhouse plastic on our compost trough. The chicken’s love being in that trough, so it always gets compacted down & of course, I don’t give it much thought (just like because we just add stuff, but don’t flip it around, especially in the winter) Well, I was excited to use it to plant some store bought potatoes that have sprouted. HA! Jokes on me. It’s frozen. So, I figured I’d throw some greenhouse plastic on it (my mom had it set up as a mini mini greenhouse) & took one of our (cheap) temp gauges out to put in it & it dropped from what it showed while it was in my pocket, so I thought for sure that meant it worked. Nope.

It stayed at 42* the rest of the evening, all night till I got up about 7 am. But it kept blanking out, so we thought it was a distance thing. But again … stayed at 42* All day today … not possible since it was around 35*, so being under plastic, it should have been slightly warmer than the outside regular temp. So, I took our other one out there to see what it would do. It worked. It didn’t get extra hot in there. So, I’ve got to go buy another temp gauge to keep for this purpose. If nothing else, I can get that compost unfrozen & get it turned enough we can add stuff to it & get it turned over before the chicken’s get to it & eat it all up.

So, fingers crossed that the temp improves enough on the outside, that it heats up the underside of the plastic. I know when my mom used it for some strawberries, so she the biggest strawberry plants ever & I think the berries themselves were big too. I may switch it to strawberries at some point, but put a mini compost tube in the middle to continuously feed them.

I’m excited about the experiments that I want to do. I don’t think they’re really experiments outside of the fact that I’m testing area’s to see what will grow where. I’m excited & I’m going to do my best to not let hubby’s negativity disturb this joy. I’ve got buckling’s that I need to get sold, piglet’s to sell pasture’s to reseed or improve upon in some way, pasture’s to replace fencing on, a hay baler to repair & get working soon. A garden or multiple garden plots to develop, tree’s to plant. You will be shocked at the amount of plant’s & tree’s that are GMO. I just got a site that shows it. Check this out … I haven’t gone through everything, but I am not happy with what I did find.

Anyway, everyone’s back, so I’m going to end this. Having enchilada’s tonight for dinner … YUM!! Not easy to “roll” the enchilada’s up with half a thumb … but I get ‘er done.

Night all.

Thanks for being here. :o)

Leap Year to March …

Good evening/morning everyone. Welcome back. Thank you for being here.

This will be shorter (that’s the plan anyway) than normal. I’m suppose to be listening to/watching a business webinar (Shhhh), starting dinner & my oldest dog wants attention.

Ok, got the pup let outside, dinner started (hubby will be back soon with the rest of it, so I had to get done so there wouldn’t be any complaining, I’m sure you know how that goes) & I’ve got the webinar going next to me, so I’m good. :oD. I do need to add some minute’s to my daughter’s phone, so I’ll be right back. Done.

We’re one baby watch, we’ve got at least 1 cow, showing signs of calving. Unfortunately, these guy’s tease. Most cow’s (like women), lose their “plug” & within day’s or a week, they’ll calve anywhere from a month to 2 month’s after that. It drives me insane. LOL My goat’s are far kinder to me, they will give signs & usually when they get to a certain point, they’ll kid out between 3 day’s to a week. Except I’ve had a goat that appeared to not be ready for about 3 more weeks & kid out that night or morning. So, my animal’s are a pain sometime’s. But I can’t wait for the baby’s. It’ll be the only batch of calves for our one Bull, as we’ve made him a steer (still working on it), he’s turning in his dad … mean .. so he’s going to the cold apt, along with his half brother’s this year.

Anyway, that’s the positive stuff. We should have baby goat’s, just don’t know when, as our buck had to dodge the bull to be able to do his job, I’m hoping he got everyone, if not, then I’ll have a split group of kid’s.

The down side of thing’s is …. hubby & I are still having issue’s. I’ve reached my limit with his negativity, I can’t say or do anything without him getting P. O’d over nothing. We started playing the Super Mario Nintendo Switch that the kid’s chipped in together to buy the family for Christmas, the last few month’s he gets so beyond ticked off, that it’s become miserable to play with him now. I don’t know if it’s his medications, him not taking the med’s he’s suppose to (some of them were causing him to constantly sleep, lose his balance, sleep constantly & so much more, that they reduced some of them. Now, he can at least function for the most part, he needs to get both knees replaced, but has put that off.

I started this blog to hopefully help other’s who may be married or dating a narcissist & to help them realize that they (the non-narcissist) are not the problem & to help them regain their emotional & mental strength to work towards leaving. But how can I help someone else, when I’m still dealing with mine?

It’ll be 30 yrs this fall that we’ve been together, married for 27 of those 30 yrs. I’ve made great stride’s on improving myself, but I have a long ways to go emotionally & probably mentally too. But right now, I have to focus on my physically health. If I don’t get on with getting my S. I. Joint dealt with, it’s going to cause more issue’s then just my knee & I won’t ever be able to get an off the farm job to get some of the financial load off of my husband’s shoulders again, to get projects done & maybe to help me find some place else to be. I also have a home based business that I’m dabbling in. I can’t say I’m doing anything with it, but what I’ve done, I’ve earned a small check that comes every month. But I’m not here to talk about that.

But, I am here to ask if anyone has their own website that they’ve created themselves? If you do, could you email me & tell me what site your using, such as Angelfire, Woobly, Wix, etc. As I’d like to create a website for the farm & start putting the animal’s on there to sell & what have you.

Anyway, click on the link above (email) to let me know who you use for your website … free version. I don’t want to put money into a website that I can’t easily use & design & hopefully it looks almost professional & can easily go that route if you “upgrade”.

Thanks everyone for being here. Not as short as I planned. But shorter than normal. LOL

Heeeerrrreeee comes March. Are you ready?

Welcome February 2024 ….

We just finished our first day of February. Upwards of almost 60 degree’s. Which is funny since it was windy & rained on & off for most of the day. But do you feel it?

Spring is in the air …. just a tease, but it’s there. How about love filling the air. At least it’s starting to.

I’m currently waiting for my laundry to get done, so I can get to bed, but I figured that while everyone else has headed to bed, I’d pop in here & say hi.

HI!!!

I had to break down & buy a new washer & dryer. Haven’t had that in YEAR’S & I was stuck with getting a “Smart” washer & dryer. But what the manufacturer requires if you downloaded their app, I was shocked at how invasive, intruding. They want access to anything & everything that’s on your phone, I don’t know what my email’s, photo’s or video’s of my kid’s & pet’s or people in my contacts or the various other thing’s that most people have in their phone’s, has anything to do with starting your washer wirelessly. I do love the washer for the simple fact that I’ve been able to fit our big heavy homemade quilts in it & it actually washes like it should. LOL

I think I’ve figured out the dryer finally. It’s not totally complicating, but it does take a minute.

Tomorrow, we’re going to take our 2 bull’s into the vet & have their family jewel’s reduced over time. Our Jersey is turning out to be like his dad, which isn’t not a good thing in the area of safety.

I’ve got some plans & idea’s, I’m honestly not sure how much to share. It’s not a big secret or anything, but it seems that anytime I take it out of my head & say it outloud, it ALWAYS seems to fail in some way. So, it might be more of doing & then sharing.

I am trying to so hard to provide food, homegrown food for my family & it doesn’t seem like anyone see’s that or cares or wants to help. But after the plandemic, actually before that, I knew that we needed to do more than just go to the local grocery store to get our food. I got tired of the constant fight, so I gave up.

Don’t give up on something you believe in, just because you don’t have any obvious support, it’ll cause you to struggle in everything you want to ever do, or ever want to do. You’ll continually have self doubt. It’s just not worth it.

Fight … for what you want, what you have a passion for a joy, whatever.

It’s almost midnight, so I’m checking on my clothes.

Thank you for being here … until next time. Be safe Be happy.

2024

Happy New Year everyone.

Yep ….. I’m 20 day’s late. But that’s ok. It’s given you time to get use to the new numbers (2024), the new month & got past the frenzy of all those new year’s resolutions.

So, did you set any? Did you give up in a day? A week? 2 weeks? Or by slim chance your still following through? If your still on your resolution & your continuing to try …… FANTASTIC!! I’m very proud of you. If you fell off the Resolution train … It happens.

I gave up on making New Year Resolutions, probably a good 20-30 years ago. I, for one, hate exercising just because. To me, it’s the same as walking. Why on earth, walk for 5 + miles & not get anywhere? I mean, why not walk to the gas station to get a drink or a snack or to the grocery store. You hit a goal & got a treat for accomplishing it. I don’t know, it’s probably just me. I would get grounded from driving & of course my truck needed parts, so in order to get those parts to fix my truck, instead of my parent’s letting me borrow one of their rig’s (like my siblings would do), I’d have to walk 5 miles to the edge of town & then another 5 miles or so to the nearest parts store & walk all the way back home & of course outside of town had hill’s, so it really didn’t matter which way I walked, I had a hill or 2.

And “stretching” out my gait hasn’t been possible since my kid’s had to be pushed in a stroller or shopping cart. Too many years of shrinking my gait to not walk faster then their little leg’s could carry them. And hubby … forget it. Going for a walk with him (IF that ever happened outside of the grocery store) was like walking with a 5 yr old. And you’d think at 6’2″, his natural gait would be wide/long, but nope. I’m only 5’7″ & I grew up keeping up my stride with my dad who is 5’11 3/4″ & to some, that might not be very tall, but he naturally walked with a longer stride then anyone I know that’s tall. My own boy’s walk slow like they have the rest of their lives to get from point A to point B. Drives me absolutely nuts. LOL Course right now, with an S. I. Joint pinching a nerve in my back/leg, walking my natural stride now … consists of leaning over the shopping cart handle & then I can walk “fast”.

But that brings me back to the Resolutions, sorry for getting off on that rabbit trail, I think the only thing that I can label as a resolution, would be to try & go to the Chiropractor twice a month to try & get this issue fixed/resolved. Because I honestly can not handle to continue on in pain like this any longer, I believe it’s affected my knee, which just adds to the pain that seems to reside in my leg/hip. Not to long ago, I was just wishing to have my leg ripped off. Seriously. I was hurting so bad, that I was wishing, hoping & praying that my leg would get ripped off like my thumb was. I don’t think I’d be as calm having that happen as I was with my thumb, but all I could think of was, if my leg wasn’t there anymore ….. But, I know that’s a stupid thing to want to have happen. So, I’m hoping to start seeing the Chiropractor this month & just make it a twice a month deal, plus do some toning exercises.

I MISS spending hours weed whacking/trimming. walking around all day. I miss the physical work. And this morning …. not something I like doing any day of the week, but being in pain. It makes it damn near impossible. But our 4 calves got out, sometime during the night or early morning hours, went on a walk about. 1 ended up in an partially unfenced pasture, the other 3 decided to camp out near the edge of the road. They’re all black. Miniature Angus/Jersey. The kid’s did most of the running in the snow (which was deep) & I’m just wanting to find a chair or log to sit in. My Blue Heeler is awesome for chasing the back side of an animal .. not so much for cutting them off at the pass.

But I was right along with the kid’s … “screw this, I’m done, I’m cold (we had freezing rain starting), I’m in massive amounts of pain, let the calf (he’s a yearling) starve (there’s ankle high grass everywhere), get stolen, get ran over.” I just didn’t care at that point. It took over an hour for the pain in my butt/hip to ease up & even longer for my knee to stop hurting. The people that are suffering from full body pain to various body parts that plague them daily from thing’s like RSD to covid/vaccination & do their best to function but still do their best to work or just do something.

I admire you. Pain killers, do not work for me. When I had my thumb ripped off, they thought it was a good thing to give me an IV to shoot in some pain killer. I think it was some off type of morphine … 3 “injections” later & I started getting sick, but thankfully didn’t, but did get tired 2 hours later when they FINALLY got done & I was heading home. But guess what …… my thumb still hurt. Whatever they gave me, didn’t touch that area at all. But it did stop the pain from the S. I. Joint pain for almost an entire day. I was so excited to not be hurting any longer in that area, that I told my friend that I thought that accident “fixed” that issue. We were both thrilled. But ….. nope, it didn’t last. LOL

I don’t have any set goal’s that we’d typically make. I just don’t want to be forced into a emergency project situation again, like we were last year. So, I’m trying to get a list of projects written down & organized into Priority to 10-20 yr plan. So that’s my New Year Resolutions. Along with making more meals, snacks, etc. from scratch. At some point, not necessarily this year, get to where I can grind my own grain to make flour, whether that’s corn, wheat, oat’s, or even nut flours or coconut (is that considered a nut?) I have no idea. But I know this, if we don’t make positive changes … we’re doomed. I mean look at the state of the world, I can’t even say “this country” anymore, because it’s not limited to the US anymore.

Since Covid, if not before, thing’s have been changing & not for the better & not improving. For the US, the housing prices are ridiculously stupid. I mean in my area alone, I looked at a place, 6 bedrooms, 4 bath’s (oh how nice that’d be), gorgeous brick home … several million dollars. And it only sat on acre & a half … maybe.

Our property is 8 1/4 acres. The house isn’t fancy, but still … I found a property that I’d LOOOOOOVVVVVVVEEEEE absolutely LOVE to have, & any other time, it’d be worth around a half mil, maybe. But they are wanting 4,500,000.00 for a manufactured home, but at least it comes with over 400 acres. With a 100 in hay. That’d produce plenty of hay for us & plenty to sell. But there’s no way we could afford that, but with that property, I’d be able to do what I’ve been wanting to do & my husband would have the shop he’s always dreamed of having.

But with having to pay 8-9+% interesting …… No way. :o( And while, I’d love it. The reality is …. Physically, there’d be no way that I could actually enjoy it. Just like I can’t enjoy the current place (& with having new neighbor’s actually living behind us this year (if their house doesn’t fall apart before they get moved in … they still don’t have a roof on it & they’ve been building (or having someone) since May & we’ve gotten tons of snow just during this month. I’m not going to enjoy the pushy bossy demanding rude people that’s about to be here. But I’m still going to focus on our project’s & on helping my folks even more. I can’t change the world, the country, the state or probably even the town/county that I’m in. But I can change things on our property & in/around our house & myself of course. LOL

We can ALL use some self-improvement, I’m sure.

Well, kid’s are complaining about the lack of food & starvation setting in (ROFLMAO), & I’m pretty sure since this is a 1 sided conversation, that I’ve talked your ear off, or bored your eye balls to death, if you’ve read this far. So, I’m going to wrap this up & figure out something for dinner. Maybe the next post I do will be a recipe (<thank heavens for spell check), and share what I’ve made from scratch & see what y’all think of it or what we think of it. LOL

Thank you all for being here.